What happens when our dreams fade… into different dreams?
It sounds incredible, doesn’t it? Seek God, and he’ll make our dreams come true. That’s what my translation was.
And it’s true. God does give us so much, and many times He blesses us so that we can actually make our dreams a reality. However, I have found that this scripture has come to mean something very different to me in real-life application.
God had blessed me with incredible opportunity and talent in this area, and so I figured that I had the “go ahead” from Him on this “desire of my heart”. So I devoted my first four years of college to refining my acting skills, learning how to act professionally and still make a paycheck, practice auditioning as an art form in itself as well as a way to land gigs, and building my resume.
Then I met the Lord Jesus Christ.
And slowly, day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment, my dream of becoming an actor just up and died.
I found that by the end of that same year I became a Christian, I had lost a tremendous amount of my desire to act. I didn’t even really care for it anymore and when I looked into what the future might hold for me, acting was not on my top priorities any longer.
But… I had always wanted to be an actor. Even as a little kid, God had blessed me with a flair for the dramatics; I would recreate and act out Disney movies with my friends and family constantly. Dress up and performance was my thing. It always was.
All of the sudden I didn’t really know what to do with myself. All of my friends who where my “acting friends” suddenly seemed like strangers; we no longer had anything to talk about or connect on. My professors and directors didn’t know what to do with me either and I was acutely aware of the disappointment I was causing those who previously knew me.
My dream was fading. It was dying. But why?
The answer is oddly simple. My dream of becoming an actor was indeed the desire of my heart, but the reason why I was not granted this desire (nor did I wanted to be granted it) was because I had never really gone after the first part of that verse….
“Seek first the Lord your God…”
Nope. Hadn’t done that until I really truly gave my life to Christ.
As soon as I became a Christian, God began to change and mold my heart, and in doing so, he altered the desires of my heart.
I no longer wanted to be an actor because it wasn’t what I was seeking first anymore; my priorities had changed, and so my dreams changed to include and become God’s dreams.
This is what truly happens when we seek God: His desires for us become our own desires because we are growing to become more and more like the men and women He intended we be.
If you are walking with Christ and seeking Him in all you do, you invite Him to change you. And He will.
Perhaps my new interpretation will be this: “If you follow Jesus, you’re dreams might fade, but rest assured that they will be replaced with a plan that is beyond your wildest dreams.”
How is God changing your heart’s desires? How have your dreams changed since you have come to know and mature in Christ?